Learning Leaps

my little pumpkin has recently learnt to wave bye-bye. at all animate and inanimate. so, bye-bye to grandpa and grandma, bye-bye to the tree, bye-bye to the rubbish bin. she even waves when she is sleepy and yawning! and lest you think you are extra special when she waves at you, your ego comes crashing down when she waves at EVERYONE in the shopping centre and gives her cheeky smile and wink. oh yes, she winks. God alone knows what other flirty gestures she'll be up to when she's older! and now that maeve is older and easier to manage, it is time to think about job possibilities. i know i have to really pray about this before making big decisions. its funny how it took me a year to pray and seek God before i took a year's no-pay leave, but takes me seconds to decide to return to work, even if just part-time. maybe, it is the need for adult conversation, maybe it is the need to feel i still can contribute economically, maybe it is so that i won't be forgotten in the "outside world". i am filled with envy everytime bernard brings home stories from work and i so long to be a part of that life of his out of the house. i've even desperately suggested inviting his colleagues over for dinner...but...he ain't havin any of it. ah well. will think of something else. desperately need to have a party. the party animal in me dressed in housewifedom is dying to get out.