you scream i scream

the little one has been having a blocked nose every night for a while and i've tried various methods to get her comfortable and back to bed when she wakes up at night at the average of 3-4 times. unfortunately, she decided to have a good scream and cry last night (which was a bad time given my emotional day yesterday) which really got me cranky. so i did what i knew won't work, but had to do anyway because it was cathartic. i screamed back. so there we were, screaming at each other in the middle of the night. poor daddy got the brunt of it and i'm sure would lose concentration at work today due to exhaustion. after a whole bout of screaming, we fell exhausted into each other's arms, she, sobbing and hiccuping away, me, tearing with sheer guilt and trying to make it up with plenty of kisses. Thank goodness children forgive and forget in a way that adults don't. this morning, she was all cheeky smiles and singing away as she "cooked".she even put up with a doctor's visit (it helps that we changed PDs and this one she liked as he had a kitchen set in the clinic and gave her stickers!)without her usual protests. I will have to find a way to deal with my own lack of patience and frustation without taking it out on her. i need more zen-ness (which hubby has plenty of), but it doesn't seem to rub off on me.