looking through the eyes of a child

maeve cannot concentrate on nursing these days as the world at large is much too exciting! she nurses for 2 seconds and scans the room with awe and wonder in her eyes, then nurses again, in order to scan the room...again. my adult mind says, but what's there to see? same ol boring room! but i guess the baby mind is thinking, wow! look at the curves of the lampshade! look at the way the light glows and casts shadows! i now understand what the God means by looking at life through the eyes of a child. we adults have lost the wonder that is God's creation and have failed to marvel at the simple things. today, i wondered at the sound of the broom sweeping leaves downstairs. i like the swish-swish sound it makes.

top five signs you've married the right man

1. He changes almost as many pooey diapers as you.
2. He semi-wakes and sits up in the middle of the night when you breastfeed so you don't feel lonely.
3. He thanks you all the time for giving up your job for the baby.
4. He reminds you you still look good even though you've got deep eye bags, a droopy tummy and flabby thighs...and not much hair left.
5. He wakes at 5 am to hold the crying baby and lets you sleep.

i married a wonderful specimen of the male race! they don't come any better than this!

happy-eat-my-ang-pow-new year!

for the first time, we reaped! usually, the money flow is outwards, and this year, it is a 2 way traffic! many gave ang pows to maeve who naturally, stuffed it into her mouth. eat yer money, tis good for ya! what was WONDERFUL this year was the compliments i received, first about being so slim after giving birth, next, about maevie being so gorgeous. i am floating, floating....best new year ever!there's nothing more affirming than being told your little darlin is the most gorgeous, this side of town..and having a baby as a visiting prop makes for good conversation. bern's relatives, who seldom talk to me (well, language barrier i guess) spent this year gravitating towards maeve and of course, including me in the attention. of course, most of them still speak to me in teochew and of course, i still nod politely and pretend i understand. here's a pic of maevie with her daddy.

new year's coming and i'm dead broke

my bank account has dropped to 3 digits!! gasp!! i suddenly feel really poor. alas! the consequence of not working..i miss being able to spend my own cash and not ask hhubby for money, but this is all worth it. i have to keep repeating the mantra. IT IS WORTH IT!! haven't bought anything new for a long while, but no reason too as i'm not working and live in Ts and shorts. but i did buy maevie new soft shoes! internet shopping is just simply addictive and buying maeve stuff, more addictive! the family is going to japan during the new year break and we lows will be all alone. boo! hoo! i guess it means time to just hang out at home and play with our little darling. i'm looking forward to having bern at home with me. it does get lonely and there is a limit to how much "look! we're hanging mummy's top! wow! check out the cornflakes" i can do without imploding.

being a stay home mom

i'm slowly beginning to like being a stay home mom. i think it coincides with maeve being more interactive, being such a sweetie in the day time, being full of adorable sound effects. it gets tough every night though as she's in this phase where she wants to practice her flipping skills at night and fill the room with weird and wonderful monsterly noises which usually preceeds heart wrenching crying. i'm so tempted to let her cry it out (and i did) for a short while, after which she held me so tightly, like i've abandoned her. i can't bring myself to do it again...which means i ended up patting her hours on end last night. but her giggles in the day more than makes up for the monster she is at night!

ouuuccch!!!

maeve had her 2nd jaby today and surprisingly, she only whimpered a little, very brave girl...but! the look of utter disappointment she shot me at being betrayed by her own mother (how could you who love me let them jab me??!!) was heartbreaking. we waited for a long while (very crowded)and the poor dear couldn't get to sleep. finally now sleeping sweetly in my sling.

all i want for christmas is my two front teeth

finally! the mystery is solved. maevie is teething! i felt hard ridges on her upper gums and did what mich advised..use teething gel. did so last night when she awoke crying and she only woke 3 times, 1 of which was to nurse. yay! i managed to have stretch of a few hours at last. i should bring maeve out more often but there's no where to go in simei, except eastpoint mall and i don't want her to be a shopping junkie. i wish there were wide open spaces (yah right!) where i can push a pram and view a mountain...i am so looking forward to going to perth. we can all take a well deseved break. bern's working his butt off and got a nose bleed yesterday. he still sleeps in the guest room coz he can't take the air con, but i hate it coz i've no one to snuggle up to.